Shame on me.

I took a break.
From everything.

At least I tried.
It´s always so hard for me to come back home.
Everything stresses me out.
I try to take a break.
But I´m still working all the time.
And then I try to make time to see everyone.
It´s impossible.
So that even adds more stress.
I don´t want anyone to be disappointed with me.
So I get sad.
And depressed.
I had to decide to try to have a real break.
I wan´t to do whatever I wanna do.
Whenever I want too.
I just can´t make plans.
This is the time where I can have total control of what I do.
And I need ME-time.

And I really need to turn off my phone sometimes.
I wake up to it vibrating constantly.
Even if it sometimes has just been friends texting me.
It´s been stressing me.
I hope these aren´t the signs of burn out.
I got into a lockdown mode for a few days.
But I´m ok now.
I guess this is the phase.

You are excited to come home.
You get home.
You´re an emotional wreck.
You don´t know what to do with yourself.
You don´t feel like yourself.
You start doing things.
Seeing people.
You start to feel like yourself again.
You become a happier person again.
You leave.
Bye Bye.

Healing energy.

I walked around today Buenos Aires today.
People were staring.
I guess we looked different.
And hearing english makes people wonder.

Later I saw an Argentinian energy healer.
Basically he feels what´s wrong with you.
He was a psychic too.
He was old, heavy with grey hair and beard.
And he didn´t speak english.
I didn´t speak spanish.
It was amazing and he knew exactly what was up.
With my body.
With my spirit.
And before I left he gave me two really long hugs.
Like he didn´t wanna let go.
Kissed me many times on my cheeks.
And said in spanish that he only wants me to be happy.
When I talked about this later it made me cry.
I needed it.
Tomorrow off to Santiago, Chile.
Any tips?

There is a big celebration on Saturday.
Independence day. 

Changes.

I am tired.
A lot has been going on.
Seing myself work through the eyes of others.
Makes me think.
I´ve gotten really good at this.
And I don´t think many would be able to do this.
Or to even understand it.
I can´t even explain it.
It needs to be experienced.

So looks like I am going to New York.
Next week.
For about 4 days.
It will be cold.
Busy.
And fun.

I was asked to be involved in this thing.
That I have been thinking about myself for a long time.
And I am so happy if this really happens as planned.
And I am so happy that I was asked.
How come life always surprises when you least expect it.
More on that later.
But you will be excited too.
God natt.

My work space today, the organised mess - I call it.

We watched Forrest Gump the other day, for the 10th time or something.
I mentioned hearing there is a company called Bubba Gump.
I google it and there´s a restaurant 10 mins from my house.
WE WENT THERE.
IT WAS weird, touristy, busy, crazy but SO AMAZING.