Miami.

24 hours in Miami.

I'm wrecked.

And my credit card got stolen.

Here I sit at the airport.

Thirsty as shit.

Boarding in 10 mins.

Baby, I'm going home.

I feel people looking at me.

I look.

And feel.

Horrible.

And so tired.

P.S. I became an auntie yesterday!

My sister gave birth to an amazing human being.

Sentimental.

Sitting here.

Waiting for my friend. 

The airport is calling. 

I feel so strange. 

I did a big Miami night on thursday.

I will remember it forever. 

I did not sleep until 2pm yesterday.

Suffered all day. 

Everything is packed. 

I can´t even express how much I hate packing. 

I have done it more than "normal people". 

I never get better. 

I wonder if my backpack is too heavy. 

Maybe I´ll just throw stuff away on the way. 

I wish I could do a whole Miami dedication post. 

But you know what. 

I´m not really into that shit. 

It happened. 

You have seen it happen since I started this blog. 

Why look back. 

When I can look forward. 

Gracias Miami. 

You gave me a lot. 

I hated you a lot. 

I loved you a lot. 

I never fully understood you.

It´s time.

I got tear drops but I ain´t cryin. 

The chosen path.

Today is a good day.
Yesterday was not.
I got punished for choices I made.
I suffered.
I cried.
I said goodbyes.
Then I got up.
Realised I have done my share of crying.
No more.
I smiled.
I Giggled.
It led to laughter.
I stand firmly behind my choices.
And I am so happy.
I wish I could share this feeling with you.
Right now.
I am not sure when I have been this happy.
I am on the right path.
My belongings are on the path.
To Finland.
All I got is my backpack now.
My mantra for the whole year.
My 2014.
Don´t be surprised when we toast in July.
And I go "2014!!!!!!".

In other news.
I don´t need new socks.
But damn.
I love them.

My feelings can´t show.

I have been distant.
I am sitting here.
Just took the dogs out.
Listening to my friend Willis Earl Beals new album.
That he sent to me by email.
And commanded me to leak.
You really should listen.
His voice is magical.
He is an amazing person.
And he already is known.
But I do think he will grow to be even bigger.
Here´s the link. 
A place that doesn´t exist, is the album.
And my feelings can´t show is on repeat now.

My birthday happened.
Birthdays are always weird for me.
But this one felt so great.
Like 26 will be the most amazing year.
That´s how I felt.
I´m coming to life.
I got dressed up like a lady.
And had a fancy dinner.
And got filled with sake.
And got a little drunk.
And didn´t have my wallet the next day.
So it´s gone.
But you know what.
I won´t let that bring me down.
Things will sort themselves out.

Big changes are coming my way.
And that is also why I haven´t opened up my Etsy yet.
That has to wait for a while.

And I have a ticket to go to Guatemala.
Feb 1st.
Meeting up with a beautiful human being.
And exploring the wilderness.

My birthday fancy lady look. 

My birthday cake Nobu style.
And thanks to my friend Aiko who´s the manager I eat like a queen.
Spoiled queen. 

Saturday.

I have so much say.
And yet nothing.
So much going on in my head.
It´s overwhelming.
I miss someone a lot.
I went out on thursday.
One of those really random nights.
I needed to dance.
So that is what I did.
At a place called Rec room.
My friend was djing.
Then we danced some more in another place.
Treehouse.
Yesterday was a rough day.
And today still a little tired.
I am brown haired now.
And in a hurry to go over to a mansion.
And eat meatballs.

I am trying to set up my etsy.
It´s so much work.
Ugh.


This is very I will stuff my face with meatballs.
So pretty.

My cuties today.
Last night they cuddled me so much I could not move.

My tour dad Wayne is in Miami to record an artist.

Sometimes I wish someone would model for me when I see things I wanna capture.
And surroundings.
But sometimes I´m the only one around.
And today I am all black.

Sold.

Today I was in Heat, Miami Heat.
And I am wearing yet again color.
Maybe it´s a habit.
ALSO.

I sold a poster of my NOPE piece.
Taken somewhere in a North Florida Field at 6am.
If you see anything on my annikaoksanen.com site that you would like to purchase.
Contact me through the site.
And we can go from there.

I heart you.

I have never felt this energy from people.
On how much they get out of the New Year.
New opportunities.
Amazing vibes.
I feel it everywhere.
Everyone keeps reminding me too.
I have never felt special about a year changing until now.
I see everything so clearly now.
The signs are popping up everywhere.
I cried today.
I sat on the floor.
And I cried.
Other than that.
I had a pretty awesome day.
What about you?

PS. If you haven´t yet.
Go see my amazingly astonishing beautiful homepage annikaoksanen.com


I took this picture today.
I LOVE IT.
And I love the fact that for once.
I am in color.
(I always wear black).

This feeling.

Sunday is my favourite day.
Waking up.
The sun is shining.
I take a walk.
It´s warm.
I get back home.
I put on a Bob Marley radio channel.
Never gets tiring.
He´s been in my life since always.
Travelled with me everywhere.
We even had a rough time with Bob.
I was working at a banana farm in Cooktown, Australia.
And they played "The Legend" on repeat.
I drink a glass of lemon water.
Followed by yogurt and granola.
Coffee.
I finish up some work.
I change.
Remembered my new red bikini.
I hop on my bike.
Head for the beach.
Feel the ocean breeze.
And do what I love.
Read a book.
And occasionally sit and admire people.
I am finally in a happy place.



I have been rocking this workout-
Housewife-
Dirty-
Homeless person look.
For many days.
And yesterday I can say.
Damn I looked good.

Happy Holidays.

Unordinary Christmas. 

I have done many of them. 

And I like them.

Last year this day was spent on a plane. 

To Finland. 

For a surprise visit. 

Now my family was here. 

I woke up at 7 am. 

Day nr 2 of doing morning yoga on the beach.

Then we all went to the beach. 

Including dogs. 

It was a beautiful day.

I ran errands. 

Later we made dinner together. 

And enjoyed each others company. 

All in all a good day. 

Tomorrow will be even better as I will spend a few hours on a plane. 

And spend about 10 days in the beautiful country of Mexico. 

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! 

Everyone needs a little xmas Elvis. 

Adjusting.

To being at home.
Surrounded by family.
Life in general.

I started arranging everything I have today.
I would say that´s is about 6 huge suitcases in total.
Perhaps.
I got so overwhelmed.
I don´t have anywhere to put anything.
I got anxious.
And started having difficulties breathing.
I should get rid of a lot.

I have been so uncomfortable in my own mind.
Feeling like I don´t know what to do with myself.
I call it "post-tour depression".
My family is here.
And I love it.
They are helping me in the process but it´s hard.
My mind is scattered.
In 3 days I´ll be in Mexico.
That should do it.

I bought a bunch of new work out clothes.
Tomorrow I´m gonna try to heal my mind.
Yoga at 7am on the beach during sunrise.

I haven´t done instagram in 2, almost 3 days.
Something is definitely wrong.

I lost my favourite pair of sunnies somewhere on the road.
They were cheap, from a thrift store in australia and mirrored.
And I once thought "Oh damn if I ever loose these".
One second I had them, the other I didn´t.
No one saw or knew anything.
So a sunglass shop convinced me to buy expensive foldable Ray-Bans.
I have a weakness for good sellers. 

I have returned.

We drove for 10 hours.
And here I am.
Safe and sound.
Talk to you soon.
I need a beer.
It´s been a crazy day.
Go check out my Flickr. 
Is Christmas coming?


I met the Voodo lady in New Orleans. XXX.

And somewhere in Florida this morning at 7 am.

Long nights, late mornings.

Yesterday.
Dog park visit.
Tompkins Square park.
It was Halloween in there.
All the puppies had crazy outfits.
Only in America.
Met up with friends.
People came and went during the night.
We went around town.
Ended up having a little get together at the hotel.
I wen´t to bed at 5am.
Slept forever.
And ever.

Last year I was on tour during Halloween.
We went horseback riding in Montana.
So I only now realized.
Halloween is celebrated for 3 weekends.
Everyone was dressed up yesterday.
Except us.

I wish this would be my studio.
I love the bathroom.
And I know you will have opinions about this picture.
It´s the same as the subject of bikinis vs. underwear.
Why is it wrong being seen in underwear?
But then people walk in the streets of Miami in a bikini.
Would they do it in underwear?
No.
This is probably wrong.
Because I´m in a towel.
Sharing a private moment.
Even if you can´t see more skin than being in a bikini.
I don´t need to explain.
It´s art.

NYC.

New york.

My flight was at 3:20pm.

I missed it. 

But Paloma, the dog made it.

I am now at the airport.

In standby limbo.

All flights are fully booked.

Abuelo is with me.

1 flight missed.

1 standby list done.

I was number 10.

Now I'm waiting again.

I'm number 8.

One option more after this.

Otherwise it'll be tomorrow.

Shit. 

Wish me luck.

I had 2 days off. 

I was chilling with my friends.

Made them dinner.

Went to the beach.

Saw a movie.

And tried to be lazy. 

Abuelo at this very moment.

Chilling.

One of my amazing meals. 

My luxury pizza.

Really? Me?

I can't believe I'm getting recognized.

I have always felt like an outsider.

In the blog world.

I don't call myself a blogger.

I write.

Take pictures. 

Share.

And this is my portal.

But now I'm nominated.

Blog of the year. 

On Yle X3M.

Nöjesgalan.

I can't believe it.

I'm in the same category with 2 long timers.

Can't compete with that.

Please vote.

For me.

Or the amazing Jeanette.

Or Anne.

You can VOTE HERE. 

PS. 

I just cancelled the mexico trip.

That was happening today.

4 more days of Miami sunshine.

I should start a "People of Florida" blog.

This dude was walking nowhere near the beach. 

Showing off his tattoo.

"Hi Mom, Here's my new boyfriend".

Too much beauty makes you blind.

Had a friend from NYC over.
Brought me new energy.
New opportunities.
And good advice.
We´ll see if pursuing them will lead to something.
We all saw a psychic the other day.
She can´t read me.
At all.
I believed in her.
But now she just says same thing every time.
I thought she would lift me up.
A litte bit.
Can I close my eyes now?
And sleep for an entire day?
I need love.

I´m starting to take all this beauty for granted.

Heaven? 

Friends and clouds. 

What an 80´s vibe?

Days.

I rented a car.

Drove for 2 hours.

Arrived in West Palm Beach.

Saw some cool bands.

Drove back today.

Did some biz.

Saw an amazing friend.

Had 2 beers.

Going to bed.

In a hotel.

The battery is dead.

What's the time?

Right now.

I feel like rolling on the floor crying.
Banging my fists on the floor.
Pulling hair out of my head.
Tearing down paintings off the wall.
Do I?
No.
I´m a Finn.
How much patience do we have?
Seems like a hell of a lot.
I wish you could be here and give me a big hug.
Pat me on the head and say:
"It´s all going to be ok".
Whoever you are reading this right now.
I need a cigarette.
Then I´m off to sleep.

This is what you usually see me doing.

Where were you?

When you don´t get no love.
When you get no passion.
Create it yourself.
I walked around the corner.
And I started seeing things again.
Like I did before.

Also cookies made of snickers and potato chips are amazing.
Get them from Panther Coffee.

I have always had a thing construction sites, visually.

The cat joined the team.

Walk the path.

This is a place everyone keeps telling me to go to.
Apparently there´s cold beer. 

Too boring to read Tuesday.

Was an early morning.
Meet with attorney downtown.
A lot of work changes.
During my hang at the dog beach.
With Mona and Winston.
And doctors appointment.
And long walk with dogs.
That sums it up.
IT´S MY BROTHERS BIRTHDAY.
<3

PS. I´m a crazy dog lady.
YUK.

Woke up to this.

Chilled with Winstons mummy on the beach for a quickie.

Only Mona was with me. 

I ain´t no housewife.

I am longing for adventure.
There are amazing ideas brewing.

I just looked out the window.
And my whole process was interrupted.
There is a maintenance guy.
He can see straight in.
He is talking spanish to someone.
And cutting palm trees.

It´s Monday today.
5.22pm.
To be exact.
I´ve been to Wynwood today.
Again.

On friday there was an anniversary party.
At Vagabond.
It was cool.
We also went to another bar called Will Call.
The bouncer was a douche.
He wouldn´t let me wear my hat.
Eventhough I saw other people wear hats.
So I went home.

Saturday I had tacos.
At a place called Lime.
Yum.
Then I saw the Steve Jobs movie.
What an inspiration.
And Ashton Kutsher was amazing.

Yesterday I layed low.
Went to the beach for a couple of hours.
And people watched on ocean drive until the rain came.

All photos now taken with my Nikon.
Love.

Friday night 90´s. 

My Boyfriend looking funny. 

Beach life on Sunday.

Wearing my awesome Nike ID´s. 

Shoes and airplanes.