May day.

Came and went.
How?
It was fast.
Fun.
Crazy.
And filled with laughter.
Love.
And friends.

I´ve gotten stuff done.
I have a home.
I can´t believe it.
I am moving forward in graduating.
I usually don´t lack feeling.
But my thesis does.
How do I insert more feeling?
I feel like throwing up.
Reading and editing the thesis.
I want it to be done with.
Ush.

I came home to my parents.
To take it easy for one night.
Calm down.
Tonight I will O.D.
On sushi.
I guess I´ll move to my own castle next week.
The keys are in my pocket.


It was all black.
As it usually is.

People watching.

Is what I´ve been doing recently.

Love sitting and absorbing everything I see. 

Sometimes take out my camera and just wait. 

Until I see a moment. 

The moment. 

I want to capture things in my surrounding. 

That other people take for granted. 

Or simply just do not see until I show them. 

Anyways. 

I´m relaxed. 

And I got drunk yesterday. 

On tequila and margaritas. 

With my two women in Tulum.

P.S. I´m building my own website.
Stay tuned. 

Yet again, an umbrella.

I have unintentionally created a series called Loneliness.
I guess I just needed to express how I felt once and I like the idea now.

Clouds have been a theme in my recent pictures.
I love this moment.

I have returned.

We drove for 10 hours.
And here I am.
Safe and sound.
Talk to you soon.
I need a beer.
It´s been a crazy day.
Go check out my Flickr. 
Is Christmas coming?


I met the Voodo lady in New Orleans. XXX.

And somewhere in Florida this morning at 7 am.

Day off.

I´m so exhausted.

I´m so exhausted.

I´m so exhausted. 

Did you get it?

No?

I´M SO EXHAUSTED.

When you just keep on going. 

Everything is good. 

But when you let yourself rest.

It hits you.

You need a holiday. 

I feel overly depressed today. 

Sad. 

For no reason. 

I guess there are reasons. 

But there´s no need to share everything. 

Something did make me happy yesterday though. 

Really happy. 

Tomorrow New Orleans. 

One of the pups ate my laces.
And I had some yellow doc martens laces in my bag.
Temporary solutions apply.

My hair is turning brown.
Pretty boring, huh?

Chanel.

I´m in Dallas.
Yesterday was pretty epic.
We went to see a runway show by Chanel.
My first ever fashion show.
I didn´t know what to think.
It was all inspired by Texas.
Pretty amazing.
As I am a fan of stars and stripes.
First there was a movie about Coco Chanel.
There was probably 40 old school american cars.
The runway show was built like an old barn.
Very american.
The whole after party was like an old country bar.
With line dancing.
We sat in the same table as.
Kristen Stewart.
Zoey Kravitz.
Dakota Fanning.
Lovely girls.
Even Karl Lagerfeld was there.
Amazing to see such a living legend.
Hot Chip performed.
And we said hi to their production manager.
Who we once had wine with in his hotel room in Brooklyn.
Very random.
I am very exhausted today.
And sad.
The dog chewed my shoes.
And did other damage.
And we have a show tonight.
Tomorrow we go to Houston.
5 shows.
And then it´s holiday time.

Also they published a photo I took of Nico.
In the Dallas Observer. 
They misquoted her.
So not the best article.

I hope life takes me where I´m supposed to go.
Don´t we all hope for that?
I guess so.

I have a thing for cars, have you noticed?
We passed a lot of abandoned and weird towns.
Buildings falling apart.
Abandoned gas stations.
Trailer houses.
So sad yet so aesthetically inspiring. 

And portraits in amazing scenery. 

Amazing roads. 

Hiding. 

Drive in viewing of the Coco Chanel movie by Karl Lagerfeld.

More shiny amazing cars.

Some random Chanel Cowboys, I had too.
And I had to wear my dirty overly worn Chanel gloves hah.

And finally... KARL!

Stars and stripes, all the way.

Roswell.

This place is so creepy.
So creepy.
So creepy.
And it´s cold.
And there´s snow.
Heading towards Dallas.
Tonight or maybe tomorrow.
In the morning.
I haven´t been abducted yet.

I got an email today from a reader.
Made me really happy.
It´s fun to get some response.
And to actually have connection.
She said I inspire her.
But she inspired me.
To do even better.
And to be even better.
And to aim higher.
So thank you Johanna.
Life always takes you on the right path.
Eventually.
You just have to start feeling it.
And recognising it.
And taking it.

Me and Nico have been having deep conversations about life.
The past days.
There´s a lot I wonder about.
That I don´t understand.
Life.
Love.
Being a grown up.
All is very confusing to me.
I observe people around me.
It all seems so easy for them.
Why is that?
I guess the perception of happiness is blurry.
For me it´s something completely different.
Than for you.
Maybe I am still searching.
If you have it.
Please present it to me.
I would prefer a Powerpoint presentation.


Some pictures to share what I´ve seen with you.
Dear people.

TWIN PEAKS. 

My mountain, clearly. 

I bought a tripod, I left mine in Miami for some reason. 

My love for old cars. One day I´ll have one.

This was in Silverlake, Los Angeles. 

Me and my forever swollen cheek in the desert.
(Don´t bike while intoxicated)

Arizona desert. 

Now finally, who will publish my pictures? 

Seattle.

I love it here.

I have a huge headache. 

Thank god today is a day off. 

Expect for quickly going in to a studio. 

And answering emails. 

And stressing about the future. 

We arrived 3am. 

I feel like sleeping all day. 

But I need to do something else.

Random shots along the way. 

Random stops in the desert.

Salt Lake City, twinning. 

This morning in my shower bedroom. 

At a random parking lot this fella was staring at me. 

We hit the snow.

After NYC.
8 hour drive.
Cleveland, double show.
Night drive.
Half way.
Sleep.
8 hour drive.
Chicago, double show.
Night drive.
Half way.
Highway hotel.
6 hour drive.
Now in Omaha, Nebraska.
Night drive approaching.
Destination Englewood, Colorado.
9 hour drive.
My mood keeps swinging.
Yesterday was a good day.
The day before was stressful.
Today has been half and half.
It´s snowy.
And really cold.
I´m thinking about Mexico.

SPENDING XMAS AND NEW YEARS IN MEXICO.
WITH MY FAMILY.
SUNSHINE.

CLEVELAND. 

Highway hotel, and caddy. 

I love shitty places with comfy beds. 

This morning, of afternoon before hitting the road. 

Here we slept, no idea where though. 

Next door was this amazing authentic southern food place.
Meat loaf. 

The open road. 

Snow, is unfair and cold. 

In the office.

In Ponte Vedra Beach.
Florida.
Last night was Atlanta.
We stayed the night.
Drove 6 hours today.
It´s been a good day.
I will drive away from here.
Tonight.
Tomorrow is a day off.
Destination unknown.
We´ll see how far we get until.
Until I need to sleep.
I am filling my stomach with energy shots.
And coffee.  

I love this woman.
I love this picture that I took tonight.
It´s Nico Turner.
Remember her name. 

On the road.

Somewhere in Virginia.

I'm in the passenger seat.

We have a show today.

And we are about 6 hours away.

We've been driving for ages.

And ages.

I'm getting a slight feeling of panic.

I need to work out a lot of things.

I somehow stumbled into a new role.

I'm the tour manager.

I haven't been crowned.

And I don't want the title.

Officially. 

But I am doing everything. 

I have to say.

It comes very natural to me. 

Music City.

See you tonight.

Nashville.

PS. 

Last time I was in Nashville.

I was in a Honky Tonk bar.

Watching people dance.

To this live country band.

An 80-year old man was eyeing me.

He walked over.

Asked me to dance.

I declined.

Now I can dance.

But as a Finnish person.

Country music isn't in my blood.

Bathroom brakes.

In sketchy truck stops.

Take me home.

Country roads.

Amish country.

Right now.

Beautiful.

What a night.

We were supposed to leave NYC 3 days ago.
I gotta say.
Registering a car is a pain in the ass.
So after trying to arrange that yesterday.
We decided to sit down at about 5pm.
It all started with one drink.
Which escalated into many.
Which led us to have more friends surrounding us.
Which led us to go to Maxwell, the singers party.
Which led me to be at a club next to the hotel.
Which led me to be dancing like a crazy person.
With my friend.
Taking over the dance floor.
Which led me to walk out of the club when they closed.
Wondering where I was.
Realising I was next to the hotel.
Which led me to pass out.
And that´s about it.
I met amazing people.

New York, I love you more and more.
New York, I think we need to move it to the next level.
New York, I think we need to become more serious.
New York, I think I´m ready to commit.
New York, sweep me off my feet.

This was 2 hours ago. 

It seems I stole this last night from the party.

Just the most awesome plate. It´s all for you Romeo. 

Just sitting here.

I had to relocate.
I moved my computer and my papers from my room.
To the lounge outside.
Sometimes you have to move to another location.
To get work done.
That´s why people have offices, right?

On Monday I had drinks with my friend Armando.
We decided to stay at my hotel.
We sat in the same place as I sit right now.
We start looking around and notice we´re surrounded.
By Patti Smith.
By a drunk Sam Shepard.
By David Byrne (talking heads).
By Steven Dorff (handsome).
Lovely.
We then gathered our troops and went to see our friend.
Willis Earl Beal play.
He was on tour with us last year.
And I barely ever saw him perform.
I now realised how amazing he is.
So amazing.
He is a true talent.
I have not heard a voice like his since Jimi Hendrix.
I cried a little bit.
Got a little shaky.
By his energy on stage.
I met Michael Jacksons nephew there.
Damn.
He was handsome.
After the show me & my friend Armando went dancing.
To this club I´ve never been to.
Ended up at a painters after party.
I had no clue who he was until I stepped into his apartment.
Saw the huge studio.
And googled him.
I hate google.
Can´t people just stay a mystery?

Yesterday was a little painful.
Migraine and no sleep.
We got our touring car.
And went to see our friends new bar.
The new (legendary) Maxfish.
After that we had a family dinner.
And I had a sleepover with my american little sister.

Now I gotta take off.
What a life.
Tomorrow the road takes us on.
Memphis.

My fab friend Armando. 

New Maxfish and Ulli. 

Construction site. 

Williamsburg. 

Portrait of me by me taken the other day. 

My location and breakfast.

Thank you.

I don´t know who you are.
But thank you for showing interest.
I just reached a significant amount of visitors today.
And I would love to see you comment more.
I have tried it before.
But I never hear anything.
But if you want to stay anonymous.
I respect that.

I talked to my mother today.
It had been a while.
Miss her a lot.
Talked to my sister yesterday.
She´s pregnant.
It´s very exciting.
I personally think I will be the coolest auntie ever.
Don´t you?

Also remember to vote for me, blog of the year. 
Or don´t.
I am very honoured to just be nominated.
Still can´t believe it.

I got this for my sisters baby.
Awesome, right? 

I watched the documentary Blackfish yesterday.
Do watch, it´s heartbreaking.
I really wish I one day would be able to work with protecting animals.
Dolphins and orcas.
We need to do something!
We can´t just close our eyes and pretend this cruelty isn´t going on.
Why do we think we own everything on earth?
I wish a species would take over and put some of us in tiny cages.
And say "SEE, HOW DOES IT FEEL".
I´m so angry.

Long nights, late mornings.

Yesterday.
Dog park visit.
Tompkins Square park.
It was Halloween in there.
All the puppies had crazy outfits.
Only in America.
Met up with friends.
People came and went during the night.
We went around town.
Ended up having a little get together at the hotel.
I wen´t to bed at 5am.
Slept forever.
And ever.

Last year I was on tour during Halloween.
We went horseback riding in Montana.
So I only now realized.
Halloween is celebrated for 3 weekends.
Everyone was dressed up yesterday.
Except us.

I wish this would be my studio.
I love the bathroom.
And I know you will have opinions about this picture.
It´s the same as the subject of bikinis vs. underwear.
Why is it wrong being seen in underwear?
But then people walk in the streets of Miami in a bikini.
Would they do it in underwear?
No.
This is probably wrong.
Because I´m in a towel.
Sharing a private moment.
Even if you can´t see more skin than being in a bikini.
I don´t need to explain.
It´s art.

I wonder if she´d be proud of me?

Today I worked a little bit.
And also got a tattoo for my grand mother.
Her name was Terttu.
Which is the most old school name ever.
My middle name was in her honour.
Teresa.
I´m proud I was able to know her.
But I wish I would have been able to know her as an adult.
Knowing another adult.
I wish I would´ve heard stories about her life.
About losing her husband.
I wish she would´ve been able to share her wisdom.
About adulthood.
I only knew her as a kid.
Knowing her grandmother.
Telling me to take my feet off the living room table.
During her stay for christmas.
Everytime we went over she had these candies.
Marmelade.
I hated them.
But I still always had one.
They´ve been around since 1895.
And I´m pretty sure they have never changed the logo.
So here it is.
You eat them too right?

I also had some fun with my camera today.
I love him.

HARD TIMES. 

My view is amazing no matter what time I look out.