Amazing vibes.

I´m sorry.
I have been very distant.
Up and down.
That´s how I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I am not supposed to feel happiness at it´s full extent.
Because then the downfall is so much harder.
I am trying to see good things in everything.
But today I just wasn´t able to get out of bed.
I was scared of how I was going to feel once I did.
Once I did I realised it´s always going to be a struggle.
I just should´t let the negative thoughts take over.
Because there´s so much good in my life.
And in me.
I am just so sensitive.
I need to be strong.
I an amazing person has entered my life.
I am not sure where it will go.
Or what it means.
I just know there´s a deep spiritual connection.
A sense of understanding.
A lot of wisdom to gain.
I think this person is someone who will bring a lot of joy into my life.
And I feel very happy.
Amazing times are ahead.
2014 will be my year.
AND MY BIRTHDAY IS VERY SOON.
I can´t believe it´s been a year since our party in L.A.
Where should I celebrate this year?

Can I hire someone to organise my thoughts in my head.
Unfortunately it´s a mess and there´s a lot of them?
I guess you could call yourself a therapist?
Funny?

Miami.

I have returned from my Mexico.
Something happened to me there.
Something big.
And I detoxed from everything else.
Than the moment.
And the feeling.
I still want to keep living in it.
So I´ll tell you more soon.
Goodnight for now.

Here it is.

My simple but beautiful webpage.
Let me know your thoughts.
www.annikaoksanen.com

People watching.

Is what I´ve been doing recently.

Love sitting and absorbing everything I see. 

Sometimes take out my camera and just wait. 

Until I see a moment. 

The moment. 

I want to capture things in my surrounding. 

That other people take for granted. 

Or simply just do not see until I show them. 

Anyways. 

I´m relaxed. 

And I got drunk yesterday. 

On tequila and margaritas. 

With my two women in Tulum.

P.S. I´m building my own website.
Stay tuned. 

Yet again, an umbrella.

I have unintentionally created a series called Loneliness.
I guess I just needed to express how I felt once and I like the idea now.

Clouds have been a theme in my recent pictures.
I love this moment.

Recently I have.

Seen intriguing reflections.

Look up at heavy crosses.

Hated on people feeding birds.
Admired the colors on beach umbrellas.

Happy Holidays.

Unordinary Christmas. 

I have done many of them. 

And I like them.

Last year this day was spent on a plane. 

To Finland. 

For a surprise visit. 

Now my family was here. 

I woke up at 7 am. 

Day nr 2 of doing morning yoga on the beach.

Then we all went to the beach. 

Including dogs. 

It was a beautiful day.

I ran errands. 

Later we made dinner together. 

And enjoyed each others company. 

All in all a good day. 

Tomorrow will be even better as I will spend a few hours on a plane. 

And spend about 10 days in the beautiful country of Mexico. 

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! 

Everyone needs a little xmas Elvis. 

Adjusting.

To being at home.
Surrounded by family.
Life in general.

I started arranging everything I have today.
I would say that´s is about 6 huge suitcases in total.
Perhaps.
I got so overwhelmed.
I don´t have anywhere to put anything.
I got anxious.
And started having difficulties breathing.
I should get rid of a lot.

I have been so uncomfortable in my own mind.
Feeling like I don´t know what to do with myself.
I call it "post-tour depression".
My family is here.
And I love it.
They are helping me in the process but it´s hard.
My mind is scattered.
In 3 days I´ll be in Mexico.
That should do it.

I bought a bunch of new work out clothes.
Tomorrow I´m gonna try to heal my mind.
Yoga at 7am on the beach during sunrise.

I haven´t done instagram in 2, almost 3 days.
Something is definitely wrong.

I lost my favourite pair of sunnies somewhere on the road.
They were cheap, from a thrift store in australia and mirrored.
And I once thought "Oh damn if I ever loose these".
One second I had them, the other I didn´t.
No one saw or knew anything.
So a sunglass shop convinced me to buy expensive foldable Ray-Bans.
I have a weakness for good sellers.