Moving camp.

I have been very active.

And taking a lot of pictures.

Last night I was in a little hobbit sauna.

I haven't been in one since august.

Felt like home.

Today.

It's time to leave San Marcos.

12 hour bus ride.

And I'll be in another jungle village.

Yesterday we visited Santiago.

And saw an amazing ceremony.

For the saint Maximón.

This feeling.

Sunday is my favourite day.
Waking up.
The sun is shining.
I take a walk.
It´s warm.
I get back home.
I put on a Bob Marley radio channel.
Never gets tiring.
He´s been in my life since always.
Travelled with me everywhere.
We even had a rough time with Bob.
I was working at a banana farm in Cooktown, Australia.
And they played "The Legend" on repeat.
I drink a glass of lemon water.
Followed by yogurt and granola.
Coffee.
I finish up some work.
I change.
Remembered my new red bikini.
I hop on my bike.
Head for the beach.
Feel the ocean breeze.
And do what I love.
Read a book.
And occasionally sit and admire people.
I am finally in a happy place.



I have been rocking this workout-
Housewife-
Dirty-
Homeless person look.
For many days.
And yesterday I can say.
Damn I looked good.

Amazing vibes.

I´m sorry.
I have been very distant.
Up and down.
That´s how I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I am not supposed to feel happiness at it´s full extent.
Because then the downfall is so much harder.
I am trying to see good things in everything.
But today I just wasn´t able to get out of bed.
I was scared of how I was going to feel once I did.
Once I did I realised it´s always going to be a struggle.
I just should´t let the negative thoughts take over.
Because there´s so much good in my life.
And in me.
I am just so sensitive.
I need to be strong.
I an amazing person has entered my life.
I am not sure where it will go.
Or what it means.
I just know there´s a deep spiritual connection.
A sense of understanding.
A lot of wisdom to gain.
I think this person is someone who will bring a lot of joy into my life.
And I feel very happy.
Amazing times are ahead.
2014 will be my year.
AND MY BIRTHDAY IS VERY SOON.
I can´t believe it´s been a year since our party in L.A.
Where should I celebrate this year?

Can I hire someone to organise my thoughts in my head.
Unfortunately it´s a mess and there´s a lot of them?
I guess you could call yourself a therapist?
Funny?

Day off.

I´m so exhausted.

I´m so exhausted.

I´m so exhausted. 

Did you get it?

No?

I´M SO EXHAUSTED.

When you just keep on going. 

Everything is good. 

But when you let yourself rest.

It hits you.

You need a holiday. 

I feel overly depressed today. 

Sad. 

For no reason. 

I guess there are reasons. 

But there´s no need to share everything. 

Something did make me happy yesterday though. 

Really happy. 

Tomorrow New Orleans. 

One of the pups ate my laces.
And I had some yellow doc martens laces in my bag.
Temporary solutions apply.

My hair is turning brown.
Pretty boring, huh?

Chanel.

I´m in Dallas.
Yesterday was pretty epic.
We went to see a runway show by Chanel.
My first ever fashion show.
I didn´t know what to think.
It was all inspired by Texas.
Pretty amazing.
As I am a fan of stars and stripes.
First there was a movie about Coco Chanel.
There was probably 40 old school american cars.
The runway show was built like an old barn.
Very american.
The whole after party was like an old country bar.
With line dancing.
We sat in the same table as.
Kristen Stewart.
Zoey Kravitz.
Dakota Fanning.
Lovely girls.
Even Karl Lagerfeld was there.
Amazing to see such a living legend.
Hot Chip performed.
And we said hi to their production manager.
Who we once had wine with in his hotel room in Brooklyn.
Very random.
I am very exhausted today.
And sad.
The dog chewed my shoes.
And did other damage.
And we have a show tonight.
Tomorrow we go to Houston.
5 shows.
And then it´s holiday time.

Also they published a photo I took of Nico.
In the Dallas Observer. 
They misquoted her.
So not the best article.

I hope life takes me where I´m supposed to go.
Don´t we all hope for that?
I guess so.

I have a thing for cars, have you noticed?
We passed a lot of abandoned and weird towns.
Buildings falling apart.
Abandoned gas stations.
Trailer houses.
So sad yet so aesthetically inspiring. 

And portraits in amazing scenery. 

Amazing roads. 

Hiding. 

Drive in viewing of the Coco Chanel movie by Karl Lagerfeld.

More shiny amazing cars.

Some random Chanel Cowboys, I had too.
And I had to wear my dirty overly worn Chanel gloves hah.

And finally... KARL!

Stars and stripes, all the way.

Roswell.

This place is so creepy.
So creepy.
So creepy.
And it´s cold.
And there´s snow.
Heading towards Dallas.
Tonight or maybe tomorrow.
In the morning.
I haven´t been abducted yet.

I got an email today from a reader.
Made me really happy.
It´s fun to get some response.
And to actually have connection.
She said I inspire her.
But she inspired me.
To do even better.
And to be even better.
And to aim higher.
So thank you Johanna.
Life always takes you on the right path.
Eventually.
You just have to start feeling it.
And recognising it.
And taking it.

Me and Nico have been having deep conversations about life.
The past days.
There´s a lot I wonder about.
That I don´t understand.
Life.
Love.
Being a grown up.
All is very confusing to me.
I observe people around me.
It all seems so easy for them.
Why is that?
I guess the perception of happiness is blurry.
For me it´s something completely different.
Than for you.
Maybe I am still searching.
If you have it.
Please present it to me.
I would prefer a Powerpoint presentation.


Some pictures to share what I´ve seen with you.
Dear people.

TWIN PEAKS. 

My mountain, clearly. 

I bought a tripod, I left mine in Miami for some reason. 

My love for old cars. One day I´ll have one.

This was in Silverlake, Los Angeles. 

Me and my forever swollen cheek in the desert.
(Don´t bike while intoxicated)

Arizona desert. 

Now finally, who will publish my pictures? 

Nöjesgalan!

I totally forgot about the gala in Finland.
Where my blog is nominated for "Blog of the year".
I will not win.
But the honour of being nominated.
Amazing.
If you know a hint of swedish do watch:
LIVE STREAM FROM NÖJESGALAN.

I just woke up.
And the stream is not the best in Atwater Village.
Los Angeles.

I am.

Tired.
Exhausted.
Overwhelmed.
Yet so relaxed.
And happy.
I´m in L.A.
So what could be wrong?
Why do I always feel so grounded here.
This city always makes me excited.
There´s always something new.
There´s always amazing people.
There´s always hope.
I´m hopeful.
I´m sitting on my bed.
Where I will be grounded for a few days.
I´m driven.
I´m gathering myself.
And soon the road will be calling again.
But for now.
I will fake normal life for a few days.
Normal.
Who invented that word?

Reload. 

And take beautiful pictures of beautiful people. 

PORTLAND.

I´m backstage.
I hear people screaming.
"I LOVE YOU".
I´m in Portland.
I love it here.
I love Seattle too.
And a part of me stayed in Seattle.
We had a good time.
Tomorrow is a day off.
And then 2 shows left for a week.
I have had a horrible day today.
For some reason.
Blood, sweat and tears.
Some days on the road are easier.
Some days are really though.
I am also smoking way too much.
For some reason it feels like a reward.
After working like a maniac.

I´m so inspired though.
I think the future looks pretty bright right now.
I will get shit done.
And work with my own creative projects.
And it makes me really happy.
I can do it.

We hit the snow.

After NYC.
8 hour drive.
Cleveland, double show.
Night drive.
Half way.
Sleep.
8 hour drive.
Chicago, double show.
Night drive.
Half way.
Highway hotel.
6 hour drive.
Now in Omaha, Nebraska.
Night drive approaching.
Destination Englewood, Colorado.
9 hour drive.
My mood keeps swinging.
Yesterday was a good day.
The day before was stressful.
Today has been half and half.
It´s snowy.
And really cold.
I´m thinking about Mexico.

SPENDING XMAS AND NEW YEARS IN MEXICO.
WITH MY FAMILY.
SUNSHINE.

CLEVELAND. 

Highway hotel, and caddy. 

I love shitty places with comfy beds. 

This morning, of afternoon before hitting the road. 

Here we slept, no idea where though. 

Next door was this amazing authentic southern food place.
Meat loaf. 

The open road. 

Snow, is unfair and cold. 

Philly.

Nyc.
2 hectic shows.
Sold out.
Yesterday New Haven.
Sold out.
Today.
Philadelphia.
Driving back and forth from NYC.
Tomorrow day off.
Can´t wait.
My body is exhausted.
But there´s a lot more to come.

New Haven was great.
My old friend came to the show.
I love seeing familiar faces.
From home.
Reminds me of who I am.
Where I come from.
Brings back a lot of memories.
This particular friend was my ex-boyfriends roommate.
Back in the day.
And we are basically in the same hometown "gang".

Monday it´s off to Boston.
I am happy today.

LATE NIGHTS AND EARLY MORNINGS. 

For some reason we play a lot of churches, I call it The Church Tour.

Day off.

Yesterday was a show day.
It was great.
Went pretty late.
We stayed here in North Carolina.
I had some beers.
First time for this whole adventure.
The evening was filled with deep conversations.
The more I talk about my photography.
The more I understand what my vision is.
And what I´m looking for.
What I want to show people.
What I want people to see.
I went to late to bed.
Woke up.
Walked around.
Felt good.
This is an amazing place.
I walked out.
And heard silence.
Small town charm.

BY THE WAY:
Find me on Flickr.

Fall trails. 

Portraits. 

Work in the local office. 

1 day.

My day in pictures.
Enjoy.

On the road.

Somewhere in Virginia.

I'm in the passenger seat.

We have a show today.

And we are about 6 hours away.

We've been driving for ages.

And ages.

I'm getting a slight feeling of panic.

I need to work out a lot of things.

I somehow stumbled into a new role.

I'm the tour manager.

I haven't been crowned.

And I don't want the title.

Officially. 

But I am doing everything. 

I have to say.

It comes very natural to me. 

Music City.

See you tonight.

Nashville.

PS. 

Last time I was in Nashville.

I was in a Honky Tonk bar.

Watching people dance.

To this live country band.

An 80-year old man was eyeing me.

He walked over.

Asked me to dance.

I declined.

Now I can dance.

But as a Finnish person.

Country music isn't in my blood.

Bathroom brakes.

In sketchy truck stops.

Take me home.

Country roads.

Amish country.

Right now.

Beautiful.

Pre-Halloween.

Yesterday.
I met my amazing friend Venla.
She is from Finland aswell.
I think I was 15 when I met her.
She used to be my dance teacher.
We have always kept in touch.
And I really look up to her.
She is this strong amazing woman,
Now it happens that she´s living in NYC too.
And we have very similar thoughts on life.
And our roots.
Finland.
During the years I´ve taken portraits of her.
And yesterday I brought my camera and took some beautiful shots.
She has this amazing energy that always gives me something.
I´m so lucky to have amazing people in my life.

Later I saw my other friend.
And we happened to be sitting next to Robyn.
Of course I had to be awkward and go over and say something.
In swedish of course.
She was with her family.
Even more awkward.

Later.
Out of the blue.
I find out that we are going to a halloween party.
Not just any halloween party.
But Michael Stipes halloween party.
I made it simple and dressed up as Jason.
People in masks freak me out.
So I had to avoid freaking others out.
And I kept removing my mask all the time.
Anyways.
Robyn was there.
And we actually became friends.
So I had the chance to make fun of my awkward approach earlier.
I talked to Michael Stipe for a while.
Making stupid jokes, not realising it was him.
He took off his wig and I was like.
Oh hey.
Liv Tyler was there too.
She took a picture of me.
I guess actors do make me a little starstruck.

All I can say is.
Today was not fun.
I had to get up really early.
A homeless person walk past me.
And said.
"Oh man you look tired".
I was like "Thank you, I know".

I´m a creep. 

My Jason outfit. Creepy.

Before I went to bed. 

Just sitting here.

I had to relocate.
I moved my computer and my papers from my room.
To the lounge outside.
Sometimes you have to move to another location.
To get work done.
That´s why people have offices, right?

On Monday I had drinks with my friend Armando.
We decided to stay at my hotel.
We sat in the same place as I sit right now.
We start looking around and notice we´re surrounded.
By Patti Smith.
By a drunk Sam Shepard.
By David Byrne (talking heads).
By Steven Dorff (handsome).
Lovely.
We then gathered our troops and went to see our friend.
Willis Earl Beal play.
He was on tour with us last year.
And I barely ever saw him perform.
I now realised how amazing he is.
So amazing.
He is a true talent.
I have not heard a voice like his since Jimi Hendrix.
I cried a little bit.
Got a little shaky.
By his energy on stage.
I met Michael Jacksons nephew there.
Damn.
He was handsome.
After the show me & my friend Armando went dancing.
To this club I´ve never been to.
Ended up at a painters after party.
I had no clue who he was until I stepped into his apartment.
Saw the huge studio.
And googled him.
I hate google.
Can´t people just stay a mystery?

Yesterday was a little painful.
Migraine and no sleep.
We got our touring car.
And went to see our friends new bar.
The new (legendary) Maxfish.
After that we had a family dinner.
And I had a sleepover with my american little sister.

Now I gotta take off.
What a life.
Tomorrow the road takes us on.
Memphis.

My fab friend Armando. 

New Maxfish and Ulli. 

Construction site. 

Williamsburg. 

Portrait of me by me taken the other day. 

My location and breakfast.